Tuesday, August 4, 2009

And I thought I loved you then

Does anyone else feel like Life just keeps getting busier and crazier? I feel as though as soon as Jason and I slow down with our lives....tons of things shot our way. I am very much a quality time kind of person when it comes to my relationship with Jason. I am not this way with my friends. I really am not a high mantience friend at all. My best friend in the entire world, (other then Jason) and I only talk like MAYBE once a month but we cherish and love each other so much. My relationship with Jason is different...I really need that quality time with him. It is super duper important to me.
5 nights a week, I am alone. Really, when I got married, I never thought that I would say that. I am so thankful for Jason's job and I am so thankful for what a hard worker Jason is but lets face it, I get lonely at night. I put the kids to bed at night, every night, by myself. I don't mind it for the most part. I remind myself all the time that this is just a season of our lives, and that someday, I will have every night with Jason. With that in mind, my poor Jason has to deal with little old me when it comes to his nights off. I want ALL of those nights! I know that is super selfish of me but I just feel like with those being my ONLY two nights with my man, I want them to be just us! I am sure a lot of our "couple" friends notice this because we NEVER have company over....like EVER!!!!! But I have the hardest time giving up my two nights with Jason. I am working on it ya'll.
Jason and I did get a little break together for our anniversary and it was AMAZING!!! I am so in love with that man. He is so much fun...FULL of ideas and so very romantic. He truly is a man of character, he has such devotion to be a good husband and an amazing daddy, he is way thoughtful, and the way I have seen him just growing in leaps and bounds in his spiritual life, well, I really don't have words for that. His relationship with the Lord is so important to him and it shows in his everyday life. For our anniversary, first he surprised me with a BUNCH of beautiful flowers in the kitchen after he got home from work and then he surprised me with another beautiful diamond wedding band. It looks so beautiful together. We rekindled our love that weekend. Went to wild waves, a drive in movie, out to dinner at apple bee's, and we shopped at walmart(we LOVE that store).
I still can't believe that I could possibly be more in love with Jason today then the day I married him but it is so true. Both of these songs(Love) and (RUN)are sooooo me and Jason and every time I hear them I just think of us. My love story is one that I could have only dreamed of and then I don't even think it would have been as good as it has been. I am so happy and overwhelmed that I can say that about my marriage and the love of my life. But it is true. Jason really does complete me in every way and I couldn't be happier or more content. I wouldn't trade my life for anything...even his stinkin' night shift is all worth it...as long as I can have him.